All along i've been fighting in a war thats been taking place within me. Day and night, back and forth continuously fighting myself. Isolated from the rest of the world because I'm to busy drowning in these endless thoughts that were slowly killing me. It was my brain against my heart and you were the reason behind this war.
My brain was always known to be the smart one. I always knew the decisions made by my mind were the right decisions. But then my weak heart always chose your side. Even when it wasn't suppose to...
My mind always knew the right from wrong. Always knew the truth from lies. It always knew your love was a lie and kept telling me to let go since it knew you were no good. My mind also told me you're going to hurt me really badly and leave me hanging. It told me to stop trying so hard to make things right when I wasn't really they only one you had. As we all know, my mind was right but did I listen to it? of course not.
On the other hand, my heart knew my weak point. My heart knew i'd take any excuse to just be with you and continue loving you. My heart told me to continue trying no matter how rough this relationship gets and i did. My heart told me you still love me even though you stopped showing it, and i believed that but it was a lie. My weak heart told me to hang onto you and never let you go because i've come this far. My heart told me to care and I ended up caring a bit to much and well that left me heartbroken..
I kept listening to my heart for a very long time, even after i've been put down continuously. I still followed my heart until one day I couldn't accept it anymore. I just could't continue forgiving you each time and let you hurt me more and more and look away from it, I just couldn't.
"I told you so" yelled my brain. "Heart was right only for so long, but after awhile you should've been smart enough to accept it and walk away WHEN YOU KNEW THE TRUTH ALL ALONG"
Sometimes you need to push your feelings and emotions away and think logically. Don't let the way you feel control you. If you know whats the right decision then make it, even if its going to be tough adjusting to. Act towards it before it gets to late.
So who do you listen to? brain or heart?
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My brain was always known to be the smart one. I always knew the decisions made by my mind were the right decisions. But then my weak heart always chose your side. Even when it wasn't suppose to...
My mind always knew the right from wrong. Always knew the truth from lies. It always knew your love was a lie and kept telling me to let go since it knew you were no good. My mind also told me you're going to hurt me really badly and leave me hanging. It told me to stop trying so hard to make things right when I wasn't really they only one you had. As we all know, my mind was right but did I listen to it? of course not.
On the other hand, my heart knew my weak point. My heart knew i'd take any excuse to just be with you and continue loving you. My heart told me to continue trying no matter how rough this relationship gets and i did. My heart told me you still love me even though you stopped showing it, and i believed that but it was a lie. My weak heart told me to hang onto you and never let you go because i've come this far. My heart told me to care and I ended up caring a bit to much and well that left me heartbroken..
I kept listening to my heart for a very long time, even after i've been put down continuously. I still followed my heart until one day I couldn't accept it anymore. I just could't continue forgiving you each time and let you hurt me more and more and look away from it, I just couldn't.
"I told you so" yelled my brain. "Heart was right only for so long, but after awhile you should've been smart enough to accept it and walk away WHEN YOU KNEW THE TRUTH ALL ALONG"
Sometimes you need to push your feelings and emotions away and think logically. Don't let the way you feel control you. If you know whats the right decision then make it, even if its going to be tough adjusting to. Act towards it before it gets to late.
So who do you listen to? brain or heart?
Leave a comment please x
Your amazing mashallah!
ReplyDeleteYou are talented don't you ever stop what you do best x
Your such an inspiration to young girls that are going through something similar.
ReplyDeleteYour words are incredible
At some point I even wonder why I've ignored my brain.
Your going to be huge in this world.
If I had a daughter I would love her role model to be you.
I believe this is your best piece so far! You kept a lot of thought into it and let the way you felt basically do all the writing. You may think you have a fragile heart but it's a lot stronger than you think, believe me. Do you box? Good, helps build your self-esteem. Stay awesome Mariam. And btw, don't consider this a war, it's more like a battle you lost.
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