After along day, I sat down on bed and my thoughts drifted far away. I realised the amount of change that has taken place in this past year and it left me in shock.
My thoughts then drifted to you.. to the thoughts that have the ability to tear me apart each time.
I started to wonder why am I still holding on? Theres nothing but emptiness between us after all. I mean, you've let go along time ago and I probably don't matter anymore right?
The funny part is even after knowing that, I still seem to be holding on and fighting for 'us'.
Thinking about the amount of trouble you've put me through, I asked myself why am I still in love with you? All the tears i've cried for you that has probably gone to waste right..
They say that if a person truly loves you and needs you in their life, then they would do the impossible to prove that to you and keep you. But hey, what have you done other than push me away day by day? All the little things you could've considered doing just to prove I still matter. Instead your actions kept punching me harder and harder.
I then whispered to myself and asked "Did I even matter at all? Or was I just another one".
Sadly yes I guess, I was just another one. I was just another joke.
Looking up to push my tears away, I smiled and told myself "Its their loss for loosing a person with a golden heart."
Yes, I miss you and still think about you. But I also think its time to let go of you and the sweet memories and move on now.
After all its about knowing when to keep fighting and when to let go. Accepting life for what it is and not for what you wished it was.
Sooo.....What do you think?x
My thoughts then drifted to you.. to the thoughts that have the ability to tear me apart each time.
I started to wonder why am I still holding on? Theres nothing but emptiness between us after all. I mean, you've let go along time ago and I probably don't matter anymore right?
The funny part is even after knowing that, I still seem to be holding on and fighting for 'us'.
Thinking about the amount of trouble you've put me through, I asked myself why am I still in love with you? All the tears i've cried for you that has probably gone to waste right..
They say that if a person truly loves you and needs you in their life, then they would do the impossible to prove that to you and keep you. But hey, what have you done other than push me away day by day? All the little things you could've considered doing just to prove I still matter. Instead your actions kept punching me harder and harder.
I then whispered to myself and asked "Did I even matter at all? Or was I just another one".
Sadly yes I guess, I was just another one. I was just another joke.
Looking up to push my tears away, I smiled and told myself "Its their loss for loosing a person with a golden heart."
Yes, I miss you and still think about you. But I also think its time to let go of you and the sweet memories and move on now.
After all its about knowing when to keep fighting and when to let go. Accepting life for what it is and not for what you wished it was.
Sooo.....What do you think?x
I love it♡ please dont give up on this! You're talented♡♡
ReplyDeleteIf what you're writing is true, then obviously your beloved doesn't understand the value of what he lost. I make sure to comment on your work not to show you that I exist, but to encourage you to keep on going.
ReplyDeleteWho are you? ;_;
DeleteLove your writing ♥ Keep up the good work ;)
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