Drowning in a sea of depressing thoughts
She crawls into a ball under her blanket and wishes to close her eyes for the last time
She wished to not feel anything
To not exist
To die
Because she's just tired of all these long, lonely sleepless nights
She just couldn't deal with hiding the pain anymore
Crying all the time
Forever feeling empty, worthless and numb
Faking a smile every time that she forgot what it feels like to actually smile
Over thinking every situation
Not having anyone to open up to
Because they either judge her
Or don't understand where she's coming from
Not being able to trust anyone, because they all end up disappointing her
Loving the wrong people
Hiding from society to avoid being criticised and judged
Always feeling like she's cursed with misery
Never being able to do anything right
Yes, all of that hurts.
It hurts like hell.
And saying you understand won't change a thing
Because you don't understand
You don't get it
You'll never get it
Until you've walked in her shoes
And been through the same shit.
I'm not emo I swear :-D
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What pain are you talking about come here you sexy creature let me love you
ReplyDeleteI've been in your shoes once and I can relate to every word you said.
ReplyDeletestay strong cause someday somehow it's gonna get better xx